♥ don't you get ahead of me & i won't leave you behind.

♥ it was your hello that kept me hanging on every word & your goodbye that keeps me listening for your voice around each corner.

♥ i don't know what i was thinking, til i was thinking of you; i don't remember a thing until i opened my eyes & you came into view.

♥ please never look back & don't look back, because you'll never forget why you cried.

♥ joke me something awful, just like kisses on the neck of "best friends".

♥ the best things in life can't be seen, that's why we close our eyes when we kiss, cry & dream.

♥ it may sound ubsurd, but don't be niave..even heros have the right to bleed.

♥ it's the heart afraid of breaking that never learns to dance, it's the dream afraid of waking that never takes the chance - it's the one who won't be taken, who can not seem to give & the soul afraid of dying, that never learns to live.

♥ i don't know how i got this way, i know it's not alright - so i'm breaking the habit, tonight.

♥ i've waited all my life to cross this line, to the only thing that's true - so i will not hide it's time to try anything to be with you. all my life i've waited, this is true.

♥ everytime you walk into the room, i'm afraid to move.
♥ close my eyes, let the whole thing pass me by, i need to let go of this pride.

♥ it's easier to run; replacing this pain with something numb.

♥ & i need you now, somehow.

♥ imagine passion, in my head the flesh seems thicker & you're my obsession, i love you to the bones.

♥ you're wasting your time if you're trying to impress me, i waste all my time just thinking of you.

♥ if i kiss you on the neck, will you slit my throat?

♥ when i say let's keep in touch, i really mean i wish that you'd grow up.

♥ i'm in love with the world, through the eyes of a girl.

♥ never is a promise & you can't afford to lie.

♥ i've been bad bad girl, i've been careless with a delicate man - well it's a sad sad world, when a girl will break a boy, just because she can.

♥ just one chance, just one breath - just in case there's just one left.

♥ i love you, i loved you all along. i miss you, from far away for far too long.

♥ the rooms have a hint of asbestos and maybe just dash of formaldehyde & the habit of decomposing right before your very (lalala) eyes.

♥ swear to shake it up, if you swear to listen. oh, we're still so young, desperate for attention. i aim to be your eyes, trophy boys, trophy wives
♥ well, she's not bleeding on the ballroom floor just for the attention.

♥ so let's get these teen hearts beating, faster. faster. Swear to shake it up, if you swear to listen
♥ haven't you heard that i'm the new cancer, never looked better & you can't stand it.
♥  i go around a time or two, just to waste my time with you.
♥ all the windows swear to miss you & the doors are cellb lock tight.


the real deal?
i don't like you, i've never liked you or any of "them" for that matter.
it's easy to wake up in the morning & paint on those smiles of yours, it's easy to believe in yourself so much that you start to doubt every move you make...
but me? i'd prefer to show people who i really am.
because when i get old & i look back on life, i'd rather know that people loved or hated me for ME, not for the person that i created to make it through these years.
i almost pity you and all of them because really, you're not living. you're posing..like store manaquins in ridiculous clothing with "nouveau" sayings & wasted intelligence.
i just wanted to make it known, anonymous or not:
i'm not jealous of you, far from it. i hope one day you'll learn that it's not worth the wasted effort to be what "they" want you to be, because who you are is probably a lot better.
you & them.. as the people you are now, are just translucent, so obviously attention-starved &  pathetic.
it's snowing, it's almost christmas & i feel alive.
bet you can't say the same lovies. ♥ xo